So at first I did not think the darkness was effecting me but, this past weekend was such a downer. I had this sad feeling and just could not knock it. I think lack of some sunshine definately had something to do with that. I am so ready for the summer months with no school and lots of Sunshine. Doctrinally speaking Light is the life of the world and to gain exaltation we must be found possessing lots of "light, truth, glory, and intelligence" (D&C 93). I am glad that I have such access to the source of all truth and light no matter what life is like in the frozen tundra.
I am still enjoying my time here. Especially getting to know some of the folks in my ward, one handsome fella in particular but that is not a story for here or now. Let's just say I am excited to see where it takes me. Hope is abounding though! God is a God of miracles.
I am still one of the FHE coordinators. We just revamped the program for a new semester. We reorganzied the families and came up with a curriculum. The first Monday the lesson comes out of Preach My Gospel and the second Monday from the conference issue of the Ensign. When I was set apart, I was told that I would be able to help increase the testimonies of those in our ward. I know that by reading and studying the doctrines taught in Preach My Gospel -which asks you to read, experiment, and journal about the scriptures- and the words of our Prophets, seers, and revealators that testimonies will increase. The Holy Ghost's job is to testify of truth and of the Savior. If they will follow the curriculum and participated in the lesson -coming prepared- then their testimonies will increase. That was my goal anyways increase the time in the scriptures and doctrine and thus increase the Spirit's ability to whisper the truthfulness of the things being read and presented.
The darkness was really getting to me. I did not really notice it and then all the sudden it was like my whole life was dark for a weekend and that was not fun. I had this overwhelming sad feeling that I just could not shake. After four days of that I got a blessing from my Institute director Brother Monte Miles. He is amazing. I am so sad that he is retiring in May. It is so nice to feel the power of the priesthood and to feel the love of our Heavenly Father poured out upon us. He loves us all so much and wants us to be happy and that happiness comes from applying the gospel principles in our lives, DAILY.
I heard from a couple of good friends this past week. One is such a good man, genuine and funny. He was here over the summer doing an accounting internship and then went back to BYUI. Now he is off doing another internship in Connecticut. The other friend is getting her Masters at BYU Provo. Both of them could carry on wonderful gospel conversations. I really miss our those. We could talk forever about the redeeming doctrine of the gospel. Good friends are such treasures!!! I am really grateful for all the amazing experience I have here in Alaska. I am pretty sure I will be here for at least another year. Then who knows.
I know that as long as I am living the single life I want to keep furthering my education. I am thinking about a master's in Literacy, or Administration, Law School..and a few other things. Hopefully I will figure it out this next year or find a good man to marry and live my dream job as a wife and momma. =0)
I hope that all of you are well. Will blog more later. =0) Love you all!!
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